49. At sea

Three months later, I have my next check up. The scars continue to fade but the reconstructed nipple has flattened significantly leaving a minimal projection. I still experience random pains around the edges of the implants and on the scar tissue. Giles confirms this is all normal as there is limited cushioning between the implants and bones. He suggests ibuprofen prior to exercising if needed, but the discomfort does not merit that. Giles asks how I am feeling about the Cancer and have I noticed any other lumps - I realise I haven't given it much thought for quite some time and am rather taken aback. Mentally, I think I must have assumed my risk factors were now negligible and I had been focusing on getting fit and getting some decent underwear. I am dragged back to reality and acknowledge that this will be a lifelong consideration.

He suggests now is the time to consider an areola tattoo if I wish to complete the reconstruction. I feel slightly at-sea as the safety net slides away and I start to end the medical journey.