33. Big

I have blisters on my rib cage where my bra has rubbed as it is too tight - my new breasts look marvellous but larger than I expected. I'm slightly uncertain and feel rather non-plussed - I can't quite explain why. Maybe it's the anaesthetic and lack of sleep combined which is making me feel a bit flat (although I certainly don't look flat as my husband drily points out). I think it is to do with a lack of control over my appearance - I haven't actively chosen to be reshaped, although I may have joked about wanting a breast enhancement in the past. 

I will need to make adjustments to my wardrobe - none of my dresses fit for the black tie party we are due to go to on the weekend or they make me look big all over. I will need to be very careful with my weight from now on, having previously been able to get away with some weight gain as my top half always looked slim, even if the bottom half wasn't. 

At my one week check up, Giles advises that there is probably still some swelling and bruising and that the breasts will soften and reduce in size over the coming weeks. Already the implants have moved into position in the cleavage and the breasts are now passing the two finger test. There is a line at either side where the muscle and implant meet which I'm hoping will disappear as the implants settle. The pain is very bearable - I take a few paracetamol but most days need none. The pain is focused on the blisters, bruising and scarlines and doesn't have that deep-rooted feeling that accompanied the previous operations. Unexpected jolts of pain still have the ability to wake me several times in the night however.